It’s  been nearly a month….since she and i became a couple.

But nothing has changed, especially from me.

I’m still clumsy as ever,

still nervous when she’s around,

still too shy to see her face to face,

still thinking that i’m not worthy for her…

sometimes i wonder

why did she accept me ?

what does she feel about me ?

How can i change ?

what should i do ?

i’m just too afraid

that if this keeps happening

i will lose her

does she feel the same the way i do ?

It is a story about a man…

…who’ve just felt the worst thing in his life….

…he felt…

what it’s like to be…

brokenhearted….

Life became so difficult for him…

for he never really truly fell in love…

but he survived….

he got friends…

he got family

one thing that he didn’t have

faith….

a faith….to fall in love…..again….

Then one day….

he met this girl….

not so beautiful….he thought…

yet not so smart too….he saw…

but why did he become so interested with her….

He never talked with this girl…

he never tried to approcah her and try to know more about her….

he was too shy…

too afraid….

that he would face his nemesis one more….

so he didnt give a shot…

he just prayed….

that sumday….

he would have the chance…..

God saw this…..and granted his wish…

so they talked with each other….

through messages…

he got to know more about her…

but still…

a conflict in his heart….

would i feel it again….

that killing and intense feeling….

On her birthday he confessed….

that he likes her….

with no reason of liking….

not because of her beauty….

not because of her wisdom….

she couldn’t give her answer….she said she need time to think

she rejected him….

that was what he thought….

Time passed….

that feeling has not changed….

the man still like that girl…

and the feeling became stronger….

jealousy….

uncertainty…

fear….

doubt….

pain….

he kept feeling them….

didn’t know what to do….

feeling….

hopeless….

once again…

he collected all the courage that he had in himself…

even when he was feeling afraid that the past would repeat itself…

he was ready….

for the worse….

or at least….

he tried….

A miracle it was…

things that would only happen in the man’s dream….

a chance….

to walk with an angel….

to have someone so special as her…

to change the wasteland in his heart into garden of flowers…

to feel…what it’s like to love sumbody….

and what it’s like….

to be….

loved…..

“Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word”

(Sorry seems to be the hardest word)

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you’re not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it’s all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It’s sad, so sad
It’s a sad, sad situation.
And it’s getting more and more absurd.
It’s sad, so sad
Why can’t we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

What do I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it’s all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It’s sad, so sad
It’s a sad, sad situation.
And it’s getting more and more absurd.
It’s sad, so sad
Why can’t we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Yeh. Sorry

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word.

I haven’t heard this song for quite sum time…but just by listening to this song once…i feel….nostalgic…

I have made her sad (maybe cried) twice….and i suppose there will not be the 3rd…

If that really happened, would sorry seem to be the hardest word ?

Cinta….satu kata yang sangat tidak asing dalam hidup, especially mine.  Sebuah kata yang sangat dalam maknanya. Sebuah perasaan yang bisa membuat orang menjadi bahagia-SANGAT SANGAT BAHAGIA, dan juga membuat seseorang menjadi orang tersuram-SANGAT SANGAT SURAM di dunia ini.

They say love can make one do impossible things, and for that, i’m not so sure. Namun, jika orang bilang seseorang akan rela melakukan apapun untuk orang yang dicintainya, saya percaya.

Cinta…sebuah perasaan yang lama tak kurasakan…..Perasaan yang telah hilang….bersama dengan kepergian orang yang dicinta…

Cinta….sebuah perasaan yang telah kembali mengisi hati ini…semenjak aku bertemu dengannya…..

Perasaan ini datang tiba-tiba….sungguh aku tak menyangka akan bisa jatuh cinta lagi untuk yang kedua kalinya…kukira hati ini telah membatu bersama dengan rasa sakit hatiku….

Cinta…sebuah perasaan yang akan selalu ada di hatiku…selama aku masih hidup di dunia ini….selama aku mencintainya….

When i was in senior high school ( aka : Bangau ) i had sum friends that i consider as my best mates…..Actually i want to put their pictures here, but since i dont have sum of theirs, so i wont put any of them..LOL…here they are :

1.   Marvin ( aka : Aciu)

2.   Charles ( aka : Superman, Beruk, Gorilla, Li Ho )

3.   Charlie ( Charles’ twins, aka : Li Sun)

4.   Yanuar Hariyanto ( aka : Lilis)

5.   Chandra Putra Arya Wijaya ( aka : Sengtek )

6.   Rudy Arifin ( aka : Mukmin)

7.   Ferdian Thung ( aka : Thung2, BelaThung)

And now that we’ve gone our separate ways, i got sum new companions :

1.   Christian Simon( aka : Simon)

2.   Christianto Sumarno ( aka : Toto)

3.   Christian Kuswandi ( aka : Bom2)

4.   Charles ( aka : Superman, the same guy here…LOL)

5.   Setiawan Koesmanto ( aka : Wawan )

6.   Sylvianto Salim ( aka  : Vian )

7.   Martinus ( aka : Anus)

8.   Surya Dinata ( aka : sur)

9.   Nicolas Fabian Kesuma ( aka : Nico)

Well, i  just want to be with them always….at least while i’m with them….

Well…this is my 1st time making sumthing like this, and i dunno what to write right now…wkwkwkkwkwk…

Anyway i wasn’t supposed to do this at the moment, since i will be facing the mid-term-test on thursday 

Well, thats all for now…

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